used before a singular noun to mean one of a group, when it is not a particular one
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
aboutprepositionUS /əˈbaʊt/
on the subject of; concerning
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
inconsistent with reason or logic or common sense
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
inflected form of “admit” — declare to be true or admit the existence or reality or truth of
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
(quantifier) used with either mass or count nouns to indicate the whole number or amount of or every one of a class
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
aloneadjectiveUS /əˈloʊn/
Having no one else present.
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
at the same time that; because; in the way that
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
used with a past participle to form the passive, or with -ing for continuous tenses
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
past form of “believe” — accept as true; take to be true
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
used to introduce something that contrasts with what came before
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
the past of “can”; used for possibility or polite requests
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
coyotesnounUS /kaɪˈoʊtis/
plural of “coyote” — small wolf native to western North America
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
creakingnounUS /ˈkriːkɪŋ/
a squeaking sound
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
the first light of day
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
the time during which someone's life continues
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
desolationnounUS /ˌdesəˈleɪʃən/
the state of being decayed or destroyed
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
-ing form of “do” — engage in
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
having finished or arrived at completion
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
fearful expectation or anticipation
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
A series of thoughts, images, or emotions during sleep.
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
all through a period, or at some point within it
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
the social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
errandnounUS /ˈerənd/
a short trip that is taken in the performance of a necessary task or mission
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
divisible by two
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
considered likely or probable to happen or arrive
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
to a considerable degree; very much
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
quickly or rapidly (often used as a combining form)
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
be afraid or feel anxious or apprehensive about a possible or probable situation or event
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a quantifier that can be used with count nouns and is often preceded by “a”; a small but indefinite number
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
firstadjectiveUS /fɜːrst/
preceding all others in time or space or degree
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
intended to be given to, or used by, somebody
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
showing where something starts, or who sent it
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
hadauxiliary verbUS /hæd/
the past form of “have”, used to form the past perfect
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
haveauxiliary verbUS /hæv/
used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned, as the subject
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
a form of energy that is transferred by a difference in temperature
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
belonging to a woman, girl, or female animal already mentioned
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
belonging to a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
holdsnounUS /hoʊldz/
plural of “hold” — the act of grasping
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
howledverbUS /haʊld/
past form of “howl” — emit long loud cries
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
improbableadjectiveUS /ˌɪmˈprɑːbəbəl/
not likely to be true or to occur or to have occurred
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
inside something, or within a place, period, or state
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
the form of “be” used with he, she, it, or a singular noun
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
isolationnounUS /ˌaɪsəˈleɪʃən/
a state of separation between persons or groups
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
put into a certain place or abstract location
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a characteristic state or mode of living
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
prefer or wish to do something
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
primarily temporal sense; being or indicating a relatively great or greater than average duration or passage of time or a duration as specified
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
louderadjectiveUS /ˈlaʊdər/
comparative of “loud” — characterized by or producing sound of great volume or intensity
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
produced by a manufacturing process
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
Manley
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From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
to a great degree or extent
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
of an obscure nature
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
absolutely essential
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
Periods of darkness between sunset and sunrise.
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used to make a word, phrase, or sentence negative
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
used to mean any person in general, including the speaker
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
used to join alternatives or possibilities
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
the time that has elapsed
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
preventedverbUS /prɪˈventɪd/
past form of “prevent” — keep from happening or arising; make impossible
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
past form of “push” — move with force
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
ranchernounUS /ˈræntʃər/
a person who owns or operates a ranch
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
require as useful, just, or proper
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
go or come back to place, condition, or activity where one has been before
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
give a certain impression or have a certain outward aspect
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
sensitiveadjectiveUS /ˈsensətɪv/
responsive to physical stimuli
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
shacknounUS /ʃæk/
small crude shelter used as a dwelling
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a woman, girl, or female animal already mentioned, as the subject
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
shiveringnounUS /ˈʃɪvərɪŋ/
a sensation of cold that often marks the start of an infection and the development of a fever
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a natural and periodic state of rest during which consciousness of the world is suspended
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
a cloud of fine particles suspended in a gas
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
snappingverbUS /ˈsnæpɪŋ/
inflected form of “snap” — utter in an angry, sharp, or abrupt tone
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
for that reason; with the result that
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
(quantifier) used with either mass nouns or plural count nouns to indicate an unspecified number or quantity
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
speedyadjectiveUS /ˈspiːdiː/
characterized by speed; moving with or capable of moving with high speed
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
stayingverbUS /ˈsteɪɪŋ/
-ing form of “stay” — stay the same; remain in a certain state
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used to introduce the second part of a comparison
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used to introduce what somebody said, thought, or felt
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
in or at that place or location
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
the plural of “that”: the people or things further away, or already known
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
an urban area with a fixed boundary that is smaller than a city
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
unrealadjectiveUS /ənˈriːl/
lacking in reality or substance or genuineness; not corresponding to acknowledged facts or criteria
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
untilprepositionUS /ənˈtɪl/
up to a particular time
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
uponprepositionUS /əˈpɑːn/
a formal word for “on”
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
usualadjectiveUS /ˈjuːʒəwəl/
occurring or encountered or experienced or observed frequently or in accordance with regular practice or procedure
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
articulate; either verbally or with a cry, shout, or noise
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
completely and without qualification; used informally as intensifiers
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
Val
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From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
precisely as stated
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
desired or wished for or sought
From this reading She believed it to be necessary, or he would not require it of her, and she wanted to be all that he expected her to be.
wasauxiliary verbUS /wɑːz/
the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
plural of “week” — any period of seven consecutive days
From this reading Her past was pushed so far from her that she could not even long for it as she had done during the first few weeks.
wereauxiliary verbUS /wɜːr/
the past form of “be” used with you, we, they, or a plural noun
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
relating to or characteristic of the western parts of the world or the West as opposed to the eastern or oriental parts
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
at the time that
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used to introduce a clause giving more about a thing just mentioned
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.
including all components without exception; being one unit or constituting the full amount or extent or duration; complete
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
a married woman; a man's partner in marriage
From this reading She was very sensitive, in those days, about doing her whole duty as a wife--the wife of a Western rancher.
in the company of; together with
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
worldsnounUS /wɜːrldz/
plural of “world” — everything that exists anywhere
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
used for something imagined, polite, or habitual in the past
From this reading There were nights of utter desolation, when Manley was in town upon some errand which prevented his speedy return--nights when the coyotes howled much louder than usual, and she could not sleep for the mysterious snapping and creaking about the shack, but lay shivering with fear until dawn; but not for worlds would she have admitted to Manley her dread of staying alone.
but in spite of that
From this reading To Val the days of heat and smoke, and the isolation, had made life seem unreal, like a dream which holds one fast and yet is absurd and utterly improbable.