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My Lady of Doubt

Chapter XVIII · Chapter 18

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THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.
I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.
In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.
Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.
If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.
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My Lady of Doubt

Chapter XVIII · Chapter 18

Chapter 18 of My Lady of Doubt is here in full — 97 sentences across 20 reading sections, with audio for every sentence and word.

Reading 1/19 · 5 reading units · Lines 1–5

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THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.
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I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.
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In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.
/ɪn ðæt ˈɪnstənt aɪ ˈheɪtəd dɪˈspaɪzd ˌmaɪˈself rɪˈbeld æt maɪ ˈwiːknəs/
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Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.
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If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.
/ɪf ʃiː hæd feɪld ɪt wɑːz θruː noʊ fɔːlt ʌv hərz ənd aɪ wɑːz noʊ ˈkaʊərd tuː laɪ ðer ənd rɑːt wɪˈθaʊt ˈmeɪkɪŋ ə stɜːrn faɪt fɔːr laɪf/

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activity noun US /ækˈtɪvəti/

any specific behavior

From this reading “I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.”

despised adjective US /dɪˈspaɪzd/

treated with dislike or contempt

From this reading “In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.”

flicker verb US /ˈflɪkər/

move back and forth very rapidly

From this reading “I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.”

Mortimer noun US /ˈmɔːrtɪmər/

English nobleman who deposed Edward II and was executed by Edward III (1287-1330)

From this reading “Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.”

realizing verb US /ˈriːəlaɪzɪŋ/

-ing form of “realize” — be fully aware or cognizant of

From this reading “THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.”

rebelled verb US /rɪˈbeld/

inflected form of “rebel” — take part in a rebellion; renounce a former allegiance

From this reading “In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.”

rot noun US /rɑːt/

a state of decay usually accompanied by an offensive odor

From this reading “If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.”

spurred verb US /spɜːrd/

inflected form of “spur” — incite or stimulate

From this reading “I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.”

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adeterminerUS /ə/

used before a singular noun to mean one of a group, when it is not a particular one

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

activitynounUS /ækˈtɪvəti/

any specific behavior

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

andconjunctionUS /ənd/

used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

atprepositionUS /æt/

in or near a particular place or position

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

backadverbUS /bæk/

in or to or toward a former location

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

beenauxiliary verbUS /bɪn/

the past participle of “be”

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

brainnounUS /breɪn/

that part of the central nervous system that includes all the higher nervous centers; enclosed within the skull; continuous with the spinal cord

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

cameverbUS /keɪm/

inflected form of “come” — move toward, travel toward something or somebody or approach something or somebody

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

Claire

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From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

consciousnessnounUS /ˈkɑːnʃəsnəs/

an alert cognitive state in which you are aware of yourself and your situation

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

cowardnounUS /ˈkaʊərd/

a person who shows fear or timidity

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

despisedadjectiveUS /dɪˈspaɪzd/

treated with dislike or contempt

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

dimadjectiveUS /dɪm/

lacking in light; not bright or harsh

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

dullyadverb

without liveliness

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

failedverbUS /feɪld/

past form of “fail” — fail to do something; leave something undone

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

FaithnounUS /feɪθ/

a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

faultnounUS /fɔːlt/

a wrong action attributable to bad judgment or ignorance or inattention

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

fightverbUS /faɪt/

be engaged in a fight; carry on a fight

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

firstadjectiveUS /fɜːrst/

preceding all others in time or space or degree

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

flickerverbUS /ˈflɪkər/

move back and forth very rapidly

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

floodnounUS /flʌd/

the rising of a body of water and its overflowing onto normally dry land

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

forprepositionUS /fɔːr/

intended to be given to, or used by, somebody

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

hadauxiliary verbUS /hæd/

the past form of “have”, used to form the past perfect

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

hatedadjectiveUS /ˈheɪtəd/

treated with dislike or contempt

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

haveauxiliary verbUS /hæv/

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

herspronounUS /hərz/

the one or ones belonging to her

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

how

Dictionary entry pending editorial verification. Tap Listen to hear the word.

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

IpronounUS /aɪ/

the person speaking or writing, as the subject of the verb

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

IfconjunctionUS /ɪf/

on condition that; in the event that

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

inprepositionUS /ɪn/

inside something, or within a place, period, or state

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

instantnounUS /ˈɪnstənt/

a very short time (as the time it takes the eye to blink or the heart to beat)

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

intoprepositionUS /ˈɪntuː/

moving to the inside of something

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

ItpronounUS /ɪt/

a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

knowverbUS /noʊ/

be cognizant or aware of a fact or a specific piece of information; possess knowledge or information about

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

lieverbUS /laɪ/

be located or situated somewhere; occupy a certain position

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

lifenounUS /laɪf/

a characteristic state or mode of living

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

lightadjectiveUS /laɪt/

of comparatively little physical weight or density

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

makingnounUS /ˈmeɪkɪŋ/

the act that results in something coming to be

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

mepronounUS /miː/

the person speaking, as the object of a verb or preposition

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

MortimernounUS /ˈmɔːrtɪmər/

English nobleman who deposed Edward II and was executed by Edward III (1287-1330)

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

mustmodal verbUS /mʌst/

used to say something is necessary, or almost certainly true

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

mydeterminerUS /maɪ/

belonging to the person speaking

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

myselfpronounUS /ˌmaɪˈself/

used when the speaker is also the object of the action

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

nodeterminerUS /noʊ/

not any; not one

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

OFprepositionUS /ʌv/

belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

realizingverbUS /ˈriːəlaɪzɪŋ/

-ing form of “realize” — be fully aware or cognizant of

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

rebelledverbUS /rɪˈbeld/

inflected form of “rebel” — take part in a rebellion; renounce a former allegiance

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

regretverbUS /rəˈɡret/

feel remorse for; feel sorry for; be contrite about

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

remainedverbUS /rɪˈmeɪnd/

past form of “remain” — stay the same; remain in a certain state

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

REMAINSnounUS /rɪˈmeɪnz/

any object that is left unused or still extant

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

restoredverbUS /rɪˈstɔːrd/

past form of “restore” — return to its original or usable and functioning condition

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

returningadjectiveUS /rɪˈtɜːrnɪŋ/

tending to return to an earlier state

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

rotnounUS /rɑːt/

a state of decay usually accompanied by an offensive odor

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

sensesnounUS /ˈsensɪz/

plural of “sens” — street names for marijuana

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

shepronounUS /ʃiː/

a woman, girl, or female animal already mentioned, as the subject

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

shocknounUS /ʃɑːk/

the feeling of distress and disbelief that you have when something bad happens accidentally

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

shortadjectiveUS /ʃɔːrt/

primarily temporal sense; indicating or being or seeming to be limited in duration

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

shouldmodal verbUS /ʃʊd/

used to say what is right, expected, or advisable

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

spurredverbUS /spɜːrd/

inflected form of “spur” — incite or stimulate

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

staredverbUS /sterd/

past form of “stare” — look at with fixed eyes

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

sternadjectiveUS /stɜːrn/

of a stern or strict bearing or demeanor; forbidding in aspect

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

suddenlyadverbUS /ˈsʌdənli/

happening unexpectedly

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

swiftadjectiveUS /swɪft/

moving very fast

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

thatconjunctionUS /ðæt/

used to introduce what somebody said, thought, or felt

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

THEdeterminerUS /ðə/

used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

thenadverbUS /ðen/

subsequently or soon afterward (often used as sentence connectors)

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

thereadverbUS /ðer/

in or at that place or location

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

throughprepositionUS /θruː/

from one end or side of something to the other

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

thusadverbUS /ðʌs/

(used to introduce a logical conclusion) from that fact or reason or as a result

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

timenounUS /taɪm/

an instance or single occasion for some event

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

toparticleUS /tuː/

used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive

From this reading Faith in Claire Mortimer came back to me in a flood of regret.

TRAGEDYnounUS /ˈtrædʒədi/

an event resulting in great loss and misfortune

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

wasauxiliary verbUS /wɑːz/

the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

weaknessnounUS /ˈwiːknəs/

a flaw or weak point

From this reading In that instant I hated, despised myself, rebelled at my weakness.

whichpronounUS /wɪtʃ/

used to introduce a clause giving more about a thing just mentioned

From this reading THE REMAINS OF TRAGEDY It must have been the shock of thus realizing suddenly how short a time remained in which I should have light which restored my senses.

withprepositionUS /wɪð/

in the company of; together with

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

withoutprepositionUS /wɪˈθaʊt/

not having, not using, or not accompanied by

From this reading If she had failed, it was through no fault of hers, and I was no coward to lie there and rot without making a stern fight for life.

yellowadjectiveUS /ˈjeloʊ/

of the color intermediate between green and orange in the color spectrum; of something resembling the color of an egg yolk

From this reading I know I stared at the dim yellow flicker dully at first, and then with a swift returning consciousness which spurred my brain into activity.

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