Chapter XII · Chapter 12

used before a singular noun to mean one of a group, when it is not a particular one

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

on the subject of; concerning

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

(quantifier) used with either mass or count nouns to indicate the whole number or amount of or every one of a class

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

in addition

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the form of “a” used before a word that begins with a vowel sound

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a human limb; technically the part of the superior limb between the shoulder and the elbow but commonly used to refer to the whole superior limb

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

at the same time that; because; in the way that

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

in or near a particular place or position

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

the past participle of “be”

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

earlier than; in front of

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

on the far side of; further than

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

brought into existence

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

inflected form of “bring” — take something or somebody with oneself somewhere

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

showing who or what does the action

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

past form of “cease” — put an end to a state or an activity

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

a large and densely populated urban area; may include several independent administrative districts

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

driving or forcing

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

something that interests you because it is important or affects you

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

plural of “consideration” — the process of giving careful thought to something

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

power to direct or determine

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

restrained or managed or kept within certain bounds

From this reading It was such an one that controlled me then.

the past of “can”; used for possibility or polite requests

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

the appearance conveyed by a person's face

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

utter a sudden loud cry

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a male monarch or emperor (especially of Russia prior to 1917)

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

a person whose behavior deviates from what is acceptable especially in sexual behavior

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

the past form of “do”, used in questions and negatives

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

(often used in combination) having a specified direction

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

United States actor (born in Ireland); father of Georgiana Emma Barrymore (1827-1862)

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

earnest and conscientious activity intended to do or accomplish something

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

divisible by two

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

at any time

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

have an existence, be extant

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

the feelings expressed on a person's face

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

opinion or judgment

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

intended to be given to, or used by, somebody

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

a long fixed look

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

hold firmly

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the past form of “have”, used to form the past perfect

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

occupied or in the control of; often used in combination

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

belonging to a woman, girl, or female animal already mentioned

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the one or ones belonging to her

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

used to add a contrasting statement

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

the person speaking or writing, as the subject of the verb

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

on condition that; in the event that

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

an instinctive motive

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

inside something, or within a place, period, or state

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the quality of having little or no significance

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

a very short time (as the time it takes the eye to blink or the heart to beat)

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

moving to the inside of something

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the form of “be” used with he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned

From this reading It was such an one that controlled me then.

used when the thing doing the action is also its object

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

inflected form of “know” — be cognizant or aware of a fact or a specific piece of information; possess knowledge or information about

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the psychological result of perception and learning and reasoning

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

plural of “lip” — either of two fleshy folds of tissue that surround the mouth and play a role in speaking

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a strong positive emotion of regard and affection

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

held dear

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

produced by a manufacturing process

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

used to say something is possible, or to give permission

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

the person speaking, as the object of a verb or preposition

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

the one or ones belonging to the person speaking

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

belonging to the person speaking

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a revolutionary doctrine that advocates destruction of the social system for its own sake

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

used to make a word, phrase, or sentence negative

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

used to mean any person in general, including the speaker

From this reading It was such an one that controlled me then.

not the same one or ones already mentioned or implied

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

so strong as to be irresistible

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

so strong as to be irresistible

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

have ownership or possession of

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

being complete of its kind and without defect or blemish

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a town in southeastern Virginia (south of Richmond); scene of heavy fighting during the American Civil War

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

possession of controlling influence

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

elude, especially in a baffling way

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

a former communist country in eastern Europe and northern Asia; established in 1922; included Russia and 14 other soviet socialist republics (Ukraine and Byelorussia and others); officially dissolved 31 December 1991

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

try to get or reach

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

inflected form of “see” — perceive by sight or have the power to perceive by sight

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a woman, girl, or female animal already mentioned, as the subject

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

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From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

excited by sudden surprise or alarm and making a quick involuntary movement

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

a thoroughfare (usually including sidewalks) that is lined with buildings

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

plural of “street” — a thoroughfare (usually including sidewalks) that is lined with buildings

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

of the kind already mentioned

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

past form of “sway” — move back and forth or sideways

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

used to introduce what somebody said, thought, or felt

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

subsequently or soon afterward (often used as sentence connectors)

From this reading It was such an one that controlled me then.

from one end or side of something to the other

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

in the direction of

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

change orientation or direction, also in the abstract sense

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

Dictionary entry pending editorial verification. Tap Listen to hear the word.

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

a formal word for “on”

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

articulate; either verbally or with a cry, shout, or noise

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

completely and without qualification; used informally as intensifiers

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

any or all of a kind, it does not matter which

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

at the time that

From this reading WHEN LOVE WAS BORN The streets of St. Petersburg, the city itself, nihilism, Russia, the czar had ceased to exist for me, however.

used to introduce a clause giving more about a thing just mentioned

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

a framework of wood or metal that contains a glass windowpane and is built into a wall or roof to admit light or air

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

in the company of; together with

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.

used for something imagined, polite, or habitual in the past

From this reading As she drew me toward the window, and would have directed my gaze through it, her own eyes held unflinchingly to mine, and mine held hers with a compelling power which she did not seek to resist, and could not have controlled, even if she had made the effort.

the person or people being spoken to

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

belonging to the person or people being spoken to

From this reading Have you ever been swayed by an impulse that is utterly beyond your control, and before which all other considerations degenerate to such utter insignificance as not to exist at all?

Dictionary entry pending editorial verification. Tap Listen to hear the word.

From this reading Whatever she may have seen upon the street that had brought that startled cry to her lips, and had made her turn about and grasp my arm, had also brought into her countenance an expression of such overwhelming and overpowering concern for me, that I knew with a perfect knowledge in that instant, that Zara loved me.