used before a singular noun to mean one of a group, when it is not a particular one
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
past form of “act” — perform an action, or work out or perform (an action)
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
afterprepositionUS /ˈæftər/
later than; following
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
(quantifier) used with either mass or count nouns to indicate the whole number or amount of or every one of a class
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
in addition
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
the form of “be” used with “I”
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
Arkham
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From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
at the same time that; because; in the way that
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
make a request or demand for something to somebody
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
in or near a particular place or position
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used with a past participle to form the passive, or with -ing for continuous tenses
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
past form of “believe” — accept as true; take to be true
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
the supreme effort one can make
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
bulletsnounUS /ˈbʊləts/
plural of “bullet” — a projectile that is fired from a gun
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used to introduce something that contrasts with what came before
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
showing who or what does the action
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
past form of “call” — assign a specified (usually proper) proper name to
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
cellnounUS /sel/
A small stone room in a prison where an inmate is locked behind iron bars.
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
correlateverbUS /ˈkɔːrəleɪt/
to bear a reciprocal or mutual relation
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
the past of “can”; used for possibility or polite requests
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
creepsnounUS /kriːps/
a disease of cattle and sheep attributed to a dietary deficiency; characterized by anemia and softening of the bones and a slow stiff gait
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
didauxiliary verbUS /dɪd/
the past form of “do”, used in questions and negatives
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
door-step
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From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
every one of two or more people or things, taken separately
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
divisible by two
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
your basis for belief or disbelief; knowledge on which to base belief
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
facingnounUS /ˈfeɪsɪŋ/
a lining applied to the edge of a garment for ornamentation or strengthening
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
plural of “fact” — a piece of information about circumstances that exist or events that have occurred
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
fictionnounUS /ˈfɪkʃən/
a literary work based on the imagination and not necessarily on fact
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
firstadjectiveUS /fɜːrst/
preceding all others in time or space or degree
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
a person you know well and regard with affection and trust
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
growsverbUS /ɡroʊz/
third-person singular of “grow” — pass into a condition gradually, take on a specific property or attribute; become
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
haveauxiliary verbUS /hæv/
used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
the upper part of the human body or the front part of the body in animals; contains the face and brains
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
hideousadjectiveUS /ˈhɪdiəs/
grossly offensive to decency or morality; causing horror
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
belonging to a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
a specific instance of feeling hopeful
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
intense and profound fear
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
how
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From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
the person speaking or writing, as the subject of the verb
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
inside something, or within a place, period, or state
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
the form of “be” used with he, she, it, or a singular noun
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
belonging to the thing or animal already mentioned
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
apprehended with certainty
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
immediately past
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
happening at a time subsequent to a reference time
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
roused to anger
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
maddernounUS /ˈmædər/
Eurasian herb having small yellow flowers and red roots formerly an important source of the dye alizarin
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
madmannounUS /ˈmædmæn/
an insane person
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
madnessnounUS /ˈmædnəs/
obsolete terms for legal insanity
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
an adult person who is male (as opposed to a woman)
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
mastersnounUS /ˈmæstərz/
United States poet (1869-1950)
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
misledverbUS /mɪˈsled/
inflected form of “mislead” — lead someone in the wrong direction or give someone wrong directions
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
murderernounUS /ˈmɜːrdərər/
a criminal who commits homicide (who performs the unlawful premeditated killing of another human being)
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
belonging to the person speaking
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used when the speaker is also the object of the action
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
used to make a word, phrase, or sentence negative
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
not one thing; not anything
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
in the historical present; at this point in the narration of a series of past events
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
touching and supported by a surface
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
used to mean any person in general, including the speaker
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used to join alternatives or possibilities
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
in other respects or ways
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
having great power or force or potency or effect
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
a person who enjoys reading
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
readersnounUS /ˈriːdərz/
plural of “reader” — a person who enjoys reading
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
Sanitariumnoun
a hospital for recuperation or for the treatment of chronic diseases
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
cut with a saw
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
100 senti equal 1 kroon in Estonia
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used with I and we for the future, or to offer and suggest
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
the act of firing a projectile
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
give an exhibition of to an interested audience
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
the cardinal number that is the sum of five and one
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
(quantifier) used with either mass nouns or plural count nouns to indicate an unspecified number or quantity
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
the season of growth
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
a message that is stated or declared; a communication (oral or written) setting forth particulars or facts etc
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
supremeadjectiveUS /səˈpriːm/
final or last in your life or progress
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
a message that tells the particulars of an act or occurrence or course of events; presented in writing or drama or cinema or as a radio or television program
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
plural of “tale” — a message that tells the particulars of an act or occurrence or course of events; presented in writing or drama or cinema or as a radio or television program
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
used to introduce the second part of a comparison
From this reading At first I shall be called a madman--madder than the man I shot in his cell at the Arkham Sanitarium.
used to introduce what somebody said, thought, or felt
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used when the people doing the action are also its object
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
subsequently or soon afterward (often used as sentence connectors)
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
a special situation
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
used for a person or thing that is near, or that has just been mentioned
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
from one end or side of something to the other
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
totalitynounUS /toʊˈtæləti/
the state of being total and complete
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
consistent with fact or reality; not false
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
UntilprepositionUS /ənˈtɪl/
up to a particular time
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
uponprepositionUS /əˈpɑːn/
a formal word for “on”
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
wasauxiliary verbUS /wɑːz/
the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
weighverbUS /weɪ/
have a certain weight
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
weirdadjectiveUS /wɪrd/
suggesting the operation of supernatural influences
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
used to introduce two or more possibilities
From this reading Even now I ask myself whether I was misled--or whether I am not mad after all.
used to introduce a clause giving more about a thing just mentioned
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.
marked by extreme lack of restraint or control
From this reading Until then I also saw nothing but madness in the wild tales I have acted on.
used to talk about the future, or about willingness
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
in the company of; together with
From this reading Later some of my readers will weigh each statement, correlate it with the known facts, and ask themselves how I could have believed otherwise than as I did after facing the evidence of that horror--that thing on the door-step.
but in spite of that
From this reading _A powerful tale by one of the supreme masters of weird fiction--a tale in which the horror creeps and grows, to spring at last upon the reader in all its hideous totality._ It is true that I have sent six bullets through the head of my best friend, and yet I hope to show by this statement that I am not his murderer.